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tellshannon815Title: Five Nightmares that Haunted Sun Kwon's Sleep
Fandom: Lost
Characters: Sun. Mentions of Jin, Jae Lee, Mr Paik, briefly the Oceanic Six, Locke and Juliet.
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: All Sun-centric episodes up through S4.
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters. They own me.
Summary: Five nightmares that haunt Sun's sleep, and one dream that comes true.
Sun first began to have nightmares when she was eight years old.
She wished she hadn't gone downstairs that night, But there had seemed nothing unusual at the time. She'd got up in the night feeling sick, and had been on her way back to bed when she'd heard the door slam downstairs, tiptoed half way down and peeked through the banisters to see her father covered in blood.
She'd run to him, stomach ache forgotten, demanding to know if Mr Paik was hurt. But her father had turned on her, eyes blazing in a way she had never seen before.
"Get back to your bedroom!" he had yelled. "Out of my sight."
Later, he had stormed into Sun's bedroom, ignoring her pretence of sleep, and demanded that she never speak of what she had seen.
Sun's father never came home with blood on his hands again. He always made sure someone else did the dirty work after that. But Mr Paik continued to appear covered in blood in Sun's nightmares. Sometimes he merely appeared in her room, covered in blood from head to toe.
Other nights he appeared brandishing a gun.
"You have betrayed my trust," he would yell, "and you will pay."
Sun had not spoken of her father's work. She had kept her promise. But from then on, she had made a point of keeping on his good side, the incident with the glass ballerina being a case in point. Meanwhile Mr Paik would pretend to believe her, in return for her silence.
It was sixteen years before Sun stopped feeling afraid of her father.
*****
It was another nightmare that brought Sun to the conclusion that her marriage must end.
She'd gradually drifted into the affair with Jae Lee during the months she'd been learning English from him. But there had still been a part of Sun that had hoped her marriage could be saved. When she had suggested that they start a new life, escaping her father, Sun had still felt that there could be hope.
But Jin had gone, turned his back on her as he'd left to "deliver the message" without a backward glance. He'd come back that night and locked himself in the bathroom without a word to Sun. She hadn't thought that was unusual at the time. It was becoming a more frequent occurrence lately.
But when the news had broken of Jae's death, Sun was sure.
"I'm told he jumped from a balcony," Mr Paik had coldly informed her, as if daring her to say anything else.
And that may have been true, Sun didn't know anything else for sure. But she knew what she saw in her nightmares every night: Jin arriving at Jae's hotel room, them fighting, Jin throwing Jae to his death.
She'd seen Jin coming home with blood on his hands before. She'd never known whose.
But now every night she is confronted with Jae's blood on Jin's hands.
And on her own.
*****
To a lot of people, it would have seemed like a dream come true.
They'd been trying for a long time to have a baby back in Korea, without success, before eventually being told that it would be impossible for them to conceive naturally. Yet the results of the pregnancy test stated otherwise: Sun and Jin had defied the odds and managed to successfully conceive a child.
At least that was the way it looked to Jin. But as soon as Kate had uttered the words "You're pregnant", part of Sun's heart sank at the words.
Because she knew there was every chance the baby was Jae's.
"I don't want to share you any more," Jae had said to Sun that last day before her father had walked in on them. And he continued to say that afterwards, in her nightmares.
"I shared you for long enough," Jae would say as he approached Sun. "But I am not going to share my child with him too. Your husband will not be raising my baby."
As Jae would wrench the child from Sun's arms, Jin would turn on Sun and walk away.
When Juliet performed the scan on Sun's unborn baby, it turned out that the baby was conceived on the island. Jin was the father after all.
But the fact that the baby was conceived on the island means Sun now had another nightmare to face - the possibility that she would be with Jae soon after all.
*****
Nobody thought anything of it when Sun awoke screaming in the night.
Her family had all heard the official story told at the Oceanic Six press conference. Everyone knew what she was supposed to have been through. It was natural for Sun to have nightmares about the crash.
But none of them knew what Sun really sees as she closed her eyes.
She's on the helicopter again, reliving the horrifying moment when the Kahana exploded. She sees Jin, far below her in the water, waving his arms to attract attention, calling for help. Sun tries to reach for him, cries that they have to go back.
But Jack keeps telling her "There's no one there, Sun," and Kate attempts to restrain her. Meanwhile Frank continues the ascent of the helicopter, not seeing that Jin was still down there, calling for help.
Even though Sun couldn't actually see Jin once the freighter had exploded, she had still believed that he could be alive. It had been the rest of them who had insisted on not going back.
This is what she tried to explain the night Jin appeared to her, dripping wet, asking why she hadn't returned for him.
"I did everything I had to do for your father, Sun. What did you do for me?"
*****
Sun didn't believe what the man on her doorstep was telling her at first. She had no reason to. He had lied enough times on the island. Even now, he was lying about his own name. Sun knew this man as John Locke, but now he calls himself Jeremy Bentham.
So when he first told her Jin had survived the explosion and was even now alive on the island, she didn't accept what he was saying. This man would have done anything to keep them all on the island. This is just some sick attempt to get her to return.
But eventually, she came to believe it was true. She wasn't even sure how it came about, but she was persuaded to return to the island.
But the night before she was due to leave, Sun was awakened by yet another nightmare.
The only thing to keep her going on the long journey was the thought of being reunited with Jin. As they arrived on the island, Sun scanned the crowd for a glimpse of her husband.
She watched as Bernard clapped Hurley on the back, as Walt searched for the face he would never see again, as Claire and Kate shared an awkward moment when Aaron failed to recognise Claire.
All the time this was going on, Sun continued to scan the crowd for Jin. Eventually she spotted Juliet, grabbed her by the arm.
"Where is my husband?" she demanded.
Juliet turned to Sun, shook her head sadly.
"I'm sorry, Sun," was all she needed to say.
*****
Sun watches apprehensively as the scene from her final nightmare begins to take shape. Walt interrupts Bernard and Hurley to demand an explanation for Michael's absence, Aaron stares quizzically at Claire before demanding of Kate who she is.
As Sun scans the crowd, Jin pushes past a startled Sawyer and Juliet, heading straight for her.
This time, Sun's dream has come true.
Fandom: Lost
Characters: Sun. Mentions of Jin, Jae Lee, Mr Paik, briefly the Oceanic Six, Locke and Juliet.
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: All Sun-centric episodes up through S4.
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters. They own me.
Summary: Five nightmares that haunt Sun's sleep, and one dream that comes true.
Sun first began to have nightmares when she was eight years old.
She wished she hadn't gone downstairs that night, But there had seemed nothing unusual at the time. She'd got up in the night feeling sick, and had been on her way back to bed when she'd heard the door slam downstairs, tiptoed half way down and peeked through the banisters to see her father covered in blood.
She'd run to him, stomach ache forgotten, demanding to know if Mr Paik was hurt. But her father had turned on her, eyes blazing in a way she had never seen before.
"Get back to your bedroom!" he had yelled. "Out of my sight."
Later, he had stormed into Sun's bedroom, ignoring her pretence of sleep, and demanded that she never speak of what she had seen.
Sun's father never came home with blood on his hands again. He always made sure someone else did the dirty work after that. But Mr Paik continued to appear covered in blood in Sun's nightmares. Sometimes he merely appeared in her room, covered in blood from head to toe.
Other nights he appeared brandishing a gun.
"You have betrayed my trust," he would yell, "and you will pay."
Sun had not spoken of her father's work. She had kept her promise. But from then on, she had made a point of keeping on his good side, the incident with the glass ballerina being a case in point. Meanwhile Mr Paik would pretend to believe her, in return for her silence.
It was sixteen years before Sun stopped feeling afraid of her father.
*****
It was another nightmare that brought Sun to the conclusion that her marriage must end.
She'd gradually drifted into the affair with Jae Lee during the months she'd been learning English from him. But there had still been a part of Sun that had hoped her marriage could be saved. When she had suggested that they start a new life, escaping her father, Sun had still felt that there could be hope.
But Jin had gone, turned his back on her as he'd left to "deliver the message" without a backward glance. He'd come back that night and locked himself in the bathroom without a word to Sun. She hadn't thought that was unusual at the time. It was becoming a more frequent occurrence lately.
But when the news had broken of Jae's death, Sun was sure.
"I'm told he jumped from a balcony," Mr Paik had coldly informed her, as if daring her to say anything else.
And that may have been true, Sun didn't know anything else for sure. But she knew what she saw in her nightmares every night: Jin arriving at Jae's hotel room, them fighting, Jin throwing Jae to his death.
She'd seen Jin coming home with blood on his hands before. She'd never known whose.
But now every night she is confronted with Jae's blood on Jin's hands.
And on her own.
*****
To a lot of people, it would have seemed like a dream come true.
They'd been trying for a long time to have a baby back in Korea, without success, before eventually being told that it would be impossible for them to conceive naturally. Yet the results of the pregnancy test stated otherwise: Sun and Jin had defied the odds and managed to successfully conceive a child.
At least that was the way it looked to Jin. But as soon as Kate had uttered the words "You're pregnant", part of Sun's heart sank at the words.
Because she knew there was every chance the baby was Jae's.
"I don't want to share you any more," Jae had said to Sun that last day before her father had walked in on them. And he continued to say that afterwards, in her nightmares.
"I shared you for long enough," Jae would say as he approached Sun. "But I am not going to share my child with him too. Your husband will not be raising my baby."
As Jae would wrench the child from Sun's arms, Jin would turn on Sun and walk away.
When Juliet performed the scan on Sun's unborn baby, it turned out that the baby was conceived on the island. Jin was the father after all.
But the fact that the baby was conceived on the island means Sun now had another nightmare to face - the possibility that she would be with Jae soon after all.
*****
Nobody thought anything of it when Sun awoke screaming in the night.
Her family had all heard the official story told at the Oceanic Six press conference. Everyone knew what she was supposed to have been through. It was natural for Sun to have nightmares about the crash.
But none of them knew what Sun really sees as she closed her eyes.
She's on the helicopter again, reliving the horrifying moment when the Kahana exploded. She sees Jin, far below her in the water, waving his arms to attract attention, calling for help. Sun tries to reach for him, cries that they have to go back.
But Jack keeps telling her "There's no one there, Sun," and Kate attempts to restrain her. Meanwhile Frank continues the ascent of the helicopter, not seeing that Jin was still down there, calling for help.
Even though Sun couldn't actually see Jin once the freighter had exploded, she had still believed that he could be alive. It had been the rest of them who had insisted on not going back.
This is what she tried to explain the night Jin appeared to her, dripping wet, asking why she hadn't returned for him.
"I did everything I had to do for your father, Sun. What did you do for me?"
*****
Sun didn't believe what the man on her doorstep was telling her at first. She had no reason to. He had lied enough times on the island. Even now, he was lying about his own name. Sun knew this man as John Locke, but now he calls himself Jeremy Bentham.
So when he first told her Jin had survived the explosion and was even now alive on the island, she didn't accept what he was saying. This man would have done anything to keep them all on the island. This is just some sick attempt to get her to return.
But eventually, she came to believe it was true. She wasn't even sure how it came about, but she was persuaded to return to the island.
But the night before she was due to leave, Sun was awakened by yet another nightmare.
The only thing to keep her going on the long journey was the thought of being reunited with Jin. As they arrived on the island, Sun scanned the crowd for a glimpse of her husband.
She watched as Bernard clapped Hurley on the back, as Walt searched for the face he would never see again, as Claire and Kate shared an awkward moment when Aaron failed to recognise Claire.
All the time this was going on, Sun continued to scan the crowd for Jin. Eventually she spotted Juliet, grabbed her by the arm.
"Where is my husband?" she demanded.
Juliet turned to Sun, shook her head sadly.
"I'm sorry, Sun," was all she needed to say.
*****
Sun watches apprehensively as the scene from her final nightmare begins to take shape. Walt interrupts Bernard and Hurley to demand an explanation for Michael's absence, Aaron stares quizzically at Claire before demanding of Kate who she is.
As Sun scans the crowd, Jin pushes past a startled Sawyer and Juliet, heading straight for her.
This time, Sun's dream has come true.